In case you haven’t heard it yet, I quit my very first job about a week ago. And this is one of the many things I miss. 

I can’t do this. Not today. I want to be happy and not to think any kind of shit, but I just couldn’t help but expect that once you come here in the office, everything is going to be bad, terribly bad again. I don’t wanna cry and definitely don’t want to be stressed out anymore. 

I hate you so much like you have no idea. You’re one of the reason why I don’t feel like going to work anymore. You sucksss! I couldn’t wait for the day until I leave this hell. 

But whatever shit happens, I’m just going to stay happy and smile this whole day. Fuck it. Fuck you. 

Our day was getting better when some irrelevant, full-of-negative-DNA suckasss suddenly decided to try to ruin it. It’s pretty saddening at the moment and I feel bad for him ‘cause he can’t seem to enjoy anything.  I wonder if he even gets happy in his whole life. Probably not. 

Too bad for him too, ‘cause no matter what he do, I’m still here smiling and trying to keep my mood good, feeling completely lost with laughter and conversations with my friends and having post-celebratory spirit, not giving a single f*ck to whatever drama and petty issues he’s tryna make.

Sorry loser, but I won’t let you get into my nerves again. You’ll just get tired and eventually give up on me. I’m not scared with you anymore. 

I hope I could work on something for this whole week at work. I seriously hate being idle. Or better yet, let’s give me the final details for the group presentation so I could start conceptualizing it. Kthanks.

1. first time I made transfer letter
2. first time I updated my resume after getting a job 2 years ago
3. first time I got an AWOL memo
4. first time I made a written explanation for a memo
5. first time I got disapproved for an Official Business trip
6. first time I met a dreadful boss

Yep, it all happened in the span of 2 months. Yay! My life is awesome.

Imisssayingthewords”ILoveMyWork”too.

It’s 1 of my last 3 resort now. I don’t think I could still continue if this thing didn’t push through.

I really really need this one. Please give it to me. 

I’m asking this in Your Name. 

All this angst bottled up inside me. I want to go to the highest mountain and scream my lungs out, all my emotions, how I feel, what I want to do. I just want to let it all out!!!

I wanna cuss nonstop.

I wanna scream.

I wanna smack someone.

My chest wants to explode with all the burden, the misery and frustration. I want to uncork the bottle that all my feelings bounce around in, I want to let them loose and let them be free. 

I wish there was a way to make sense out of all this, but is it even necessary to make sense all the time? I don’t think so.

What does principle get me if I would be acting out of one, instead of my gut feelings? What good do other people’s theories really have for me? Why should I be bothered by the uncertainty of your own opinion when nothing is absolutely certain anyway?

I have been provoked once again and all I ever want to do is blab. I don’t really wanna waste my time on it but I feel like this is the only way I could make it even. So, I’m letting go of everything that clouds my heart and mind. No expectations, no inhibitions, no questions. Just my own peace, here and now. And nothing else matter

it makes him/her UNCOOPERATIVE right away? 

Fuck! I didn’t know about that… Will you please explain it to me.

Sorry if I don’t want to have breakfast or lunch or merienda with you guys, sorry if I’m not participating in your “bonding” time, sorry if I’m not talking or sharing, coz as far as I know, I can do whatever I want and you’re not supposed to dictate me of what I should be doing or not. 

You could complain if I’m not doing my task and everything, but holy bejeeesuuus, I was trying my best to finish all the projects I’m handling so you guys wont have a hard time when I leave next month. If you’ll also check, I just did a very detailed report for their statutes so you wont bother me in the future. Tell me if its still not enough goddammittt! 

Will you just accept the fact that I’d stop caring and I don’t give a flying fuck anymore, and just get over it? Stop making petty issues. It’s so cheap! Blaaaah

I know there’s nothing to be anxious about but I just couldn’t help but feel that I will be somehow alone in the line.

I’m praying for a quick comeback from our HR asap, that they could find a better replacement for the du… ugghhh nevermind.

Expect a gush of job orders and constant bugging follow-up from me starting today since I’m making up for a certain lapse I’ve done with one of our client and of course for being always out of the office last month.

Please do them as fast as you can coz some of them are really really urgent. Our clients knew how great you are guys so they kinda expecting a quick feedback for all their requests. Thank you. 

Sincerely,

D

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